Nightfall

Nightfall, you are never a stranger to me,
We are old friends, you give me happiness and excitement
I gave you my strength and youth
But why, why you become so cruel now?
Every time you come
You swallow me down to this alley
A place with nothing, only spears and arrows make of fear, worries and little strength pointed at me
They shot at me while I am still in the air
But I cannot die because you put strength in the weapons
It's just pure, endless torturing until you go away
One minute before I might still be a warrior, but you take off my armor and strength, turn me into a helpless kid
And swallow me down mercilessly
I belong to you
I don't have the strength to fight back
But please, don't be so cruel to me

What is this all about?
A relationship that make you angry and argue
What the fuck is it? is it a relationship or love?
i believe that words can express happiness, anger, upset and all sort of emotion
But i am not really good at it, especially in english
I don't want to hide my feeling, but if i don't hide it, it will lead to a fight
sometimes i doubt why people want to be in love?
they cannot expect the other one to understand exactly how you feel
it never can anyway, everyone is unique, unless you want to fall in love with a mirror.

"Love is like Three-legged race, if you don't want to fall, then both of you gotta co-operate with each other. If one person want to go to east, you need to follow him/her, its very difficult to do that and as time goes by, the selfishness will hurt both of your legs." *hope you understand what am i trying to say*

New Blog, AGAIN

How many blog I had so far?
Two or three, I cannot remember, but I guess it's not that important
O well, I had a xanga, which I use the most before,
writen down everythings, like what I ate, when I sleep,
crap like that.. although I did wrote down some of my thought and feeling
but just a small amount of it compare to the living details
The reason why i create this blog is I don't know yet, I hope you can help me find it out
*may be no one will continue reading it*
yea, I admit that my english isn't that good, but I am trying my best
so if you are reading my entry, and if you are interested in keep reading it
please feel free to leave a comment to correct my grammar or spelling mistake =]

This is the main reason why i want a new blog
I want to write down the feelings that are big enough to make think
make me wonder.. no matter how small it is, i just hope that there is someone out there
share the same feeling as me, i hope.

This is my last year of uni, i hope, i am thinking continue my study in china
but i don't want to break up with my gf, you can say i am very stupid or love is everything to me
it's just we come through a lot of shit, and some of them is bad enough for most people to discontinue their relationship
but we are still together, we had been together for almost 2 yrs now, to me everyday is still the beginning of the relationship
i won't say she is the ONE or something like nothing will make us apart beside death, but close
may be there will have someone better in the future, may be there is someone better than her
personally i don't believe in may be, but i think i gonna have a long distance relationship with her
i hope it will work, but just so many feeling cannot get away, i try no to think about it, however, it's still there
well, wish me luck guys, i know this entry is a bit long, but its not finish yet
i will continue tomorrow, kinda tired, good night guys