Laying down on the bed by myself these nights
The loneliness feeling hit me like a tsunami
Drowns me, drag me deep down into the ocean
No matter how hard i fight against the current
I am still drowning, still surrounding by the cold dark feeling
Mental strength is useless cause i am still screaming
Screaming for your name from my heart
I thought I already let go, I told myself I need to let go
Trying to forget you is like trying to remember someone I never met
From an angel's wing to a falling star, God made everything, but an unbreakable heart
I wish i can mend it, fix it or glue it
But how can I pick it up whist you are the only one can turn it from ashes to pieces
11.10.09
20.9.09
19.9.09
It is time
It is time to perform a cardiopulmonary resuscitation for my blog LOL
Yea, I am still alive, may be not for long cos I had been having farewell and welcoming party for months..
You are not going to believe the amount of alcohol I had been consumed for the past few months
Anyway, gonna get my ass back to Melbourne real soon, by the end of next month
But before that, I gotta sit for a stupid examination, it is called the Common Recruitment Examination
It is like some entry ticket to work for the HK government...
FFS, exam again... damn, honestly I haven't done shit for it and I have no idea what it is, God Bless me LOL
Anyway, here is some pictures I wanna share with my Florence's friends since they PLAN to come to HK by the end of this year or next year, here is a few place I will bring you guys beside shopping =]
1. -20 degree Vodka Bar (some of you might notice that I have a few pic with this fur on)
2. Peanut bar (time to be a monkey to have free peanut and throw all the shell onto the floor)
3. This is a must go place for you guys, so I gonna leave it as a surprise for you
Yea, I am still alive, may be not for long cos I had been having farewell and welcoming party for months..
You are not going to believe the amount of alcohol I had been consumed for the past few months
Anyway, gonna get my ass back to Melbourne real soon, by the end of next month
But before that, I gotta sit for a stupid examination, it is called the Common Recruitment Examination
It is like some entry ticket to work for the HK government...
FFS, exam again... damn, honestly I haven't done shit for it and I have no idea what it is, God Bless me LOL
Anyway, here is some pictures I wanna share with my Florence's friends since they PLAN to come to HK by the end of this year or next year, here is a few place I will bring you guys beside shopping =]
1. -20 degree Vodka Bar (some of you might notice that I have a few pic with this fur on)
2. Peanut bar (time to be a monkey to have free peanut and throw all the shell onto the floor)
3. This is a must go place for you guys, so I gonna leave it as a surprise for you
3.9.09
Bitter smile
It has been a while that I didn't update my blog...
I know, I know....
Well I just woke up from my nap again, I am sick recently, so need to stay at home almost everyday..hahaha
Have you ever experienced a series of dream?? I just did
It is quite dramatic and western
No one want to hear the story, well, fuck it, I gonna write it down anyway
I bet everyone watch the movie "Ghost Rider" right
So in my dream, I am just a normal person driving along some random western off-road with my friend, but then there is a cart behind us, a cart with all the silver skeleton decoration on it, but it is ok tho it is a bit weird. Then all of a sudden there is a group of those modified sport cars, yea like those cars in the latest "Fast and Furious", instead of those nice Japanese sport car, they are those 4WD and old school Mustang. Anyway, they just begin to hunt us down for no reason, and the skeleton like stableman stood up and protect us, crushing their cars and dodging bullets and stuff like that... then I heard the boss of the gang offer 1M to take down the stableman, now remember this car, cos it will appear in my dream series 2.
This shinny sky-blue old school convertible Mustang with a buffalo skull on the front take the offer, keep pushing us, and shooting at us.. May be you can kind of expected the cart and the Mustang is both down in the end, yup, they are..wait so what happen to us?? Our car was already destroyed and being sucked into the cart like a magic trick... so at last every single of my friend is gone to meet with GOD, only me remain. Well anyway, I was being asked to take care or to take control of the.... Mustang, I don't know why I agree with it.. just imagine it as a shinny sky-blue convertible mustang with a buffalo skull of it
after then I need to pee in reality, so I woke up.. still wanna read more?? ok
After the attack, I was driving in this weird place, it is a combination of dessert, city and seashore... I tried so hard to figure out where the hell am I, at last I did, I was in Nigeria, the boarder of Nigeria. There are some three-wheels-smart-car like tram on the road, and of course busy traffic, so I just drive and drift (since when i know how to drift). After I reach this cafe, it is a beautiful cafe, it is by the sea, then there is a group of Vietnamese chatting about how things going in Melbourne, and blablabla, I found out that my girlfriend (my ex in reality) was getting into some trouble in Mel with them, so I gotta squeeze out some information from them, yea it is exactly like what you think it is, I beat them up badly, but still get nothing. So I went for some weapons, because I only get a shotgun in my car, it belong to the previous driver. The moment I left the cafe, the cops over there start to hunt me down, and now "Fast and Furious" is on, a lot of drifting, speeding involved around the city. At last I found this military plane, those big ass one agree to take me to Melbourne with my ride and a cargo of weapons. THEN, my mom call me...
So this is the finale of my dream, I don't know how I found the group that my girlfriend mess with, they were friends before, just don't know why all of a sudden become like this, o well, i bet some of you might know.... anyway, I called all my friends from different countries, like from the state, Uk, Canada and Hk. It is like two group of people yelling at each other, push around and shit like this. Once I take her back, have her in my arms again, she cried and seems she went through a lot of shit. Then the V group said something really nasty and disgusting, so what is next? I jump into my cargo, giving all my friend a bomb which painted as a baseball, baseball?? whatever, the only thing I took with me is a really sharp and thin military knife, I hide it in my socks. There is no gang fight or any explosion happen. Because I agree I will race with all of them by myself, the one who lose lost everything, (wow so heroic).. Yea, you know the ending right, I win, thanks to the car, but but the car is not a transformer, it just know where to go and what to do to defeat the enemies.. in the end, my girlfriend smile again. And along with the smile, i woke up and said
WTF......
I miss her..
I know, I know....
Well I just woke up from my nap again, I am sick recently, so need to stay at home almost everyday..hahaha
Have you ever experienced a series of dream?? I just did
It is quite dramatic and western
No one want to hear the story, well, fuck it, I gonna write it down anyway
I bet everyone watch the movie "Ghost Rider" right
So in my dream, I am just a normal person driving along some random western off-road with my friend, but then there is a cart behind us, a cart with all the silver skeleton decoration on it, but it is ok tho it is a bit weird. Then all of a sudden there is a group of those modified sport cars, yea like those cars in the latest "Fast and Furious", instead of those nice Japanese sport car, they are those 4WD and old school Mustang. Anyway, they just begin to hunt us down for no reason, and the skeleton like stableman stood up and protect us, crushing their cars and dodging bullets and stuff like that... then I heard the boss of the gang offer 1M to take down the stableman, now remember this car, cos it will appear in my dream series 2.
This shinny sky-blue old school convertible Mustang with a buffalo skull on the front take the offer, keep pushing us, and shooting at us.. May be you can kind of expected the cart and the Mustang is both down in the end, yup, they are..wait so what happen to us?? Our car was already destroyed and being sucked into the cart like a magic trick... so at last every single of my friend is gone to meet with GOD, only me remain. Well anyway, I was being asked to take care or to take control of the.... Mustang, I don't know why I agree with it.. just imagine it as a shinny sky-blue convertible mustang with a buffalo skull of it
after then I need to pee in reality, so I woke up.. still wanna read more?? okAfter the attack, I was driving in this weird place, it is a combination of dessert, city and seashore... I tried so hard to figure out where the hell am I, at last I did, I was in Nigeria, the boarder of Nigeria. There are some three-wheels-smart-car like tram on the road, and of course busy traffic, so I just drive and drift (since when i know how to drift). After I reach this cafe, it is a beautiful cafe, it is by the sea, then there is a group of Vietnamese chatting about how things going in Melbourne, and blablabla, I found out that my girlfriend (my ex in reality) was getting into some trouble in Mel with them, so I gotta squeeze out some information from them, yea it is exactly like what you think it is, I beat them up badly, but still get nothing. So I went for some weapons, because I only get a shotgun in my car, it belong to the previous driver. The moment I left the cafe, the cops over there start to hunt me down, and now "Fast and Furious" is on, a lot of drifting, speeding involved around the city. At last I found this military plane, those big ass one agree to take me to Melbourne with my ride and a cargo of weapons. THEN, my mom call me...
So this is the finale of my dream, I don't know how I found the group that my girlfriend mess with, they were friends before, just don't know why all of a sudden become like this, o well, i bet some of you might know.... anyway, I called all my friends from different countries, like from the state, Uk, Canada and Hk. It is like two group of people yelling at each other, push around and shit like this. Once I take her back, have her in my arms again, she cried and seems she went through a lot of shit. Then the V group said something really nasty and disgusting, so what is next? I jump into my cargo, giving all my friend a bomb which painted as a baseball, baseball?? whatever, the only thing I took with me is a really sharp and thin military knife, I hide it in my socks. There is no gang fight or any explosion happen. Because I agree I will race with all of them by myself, the one who lose lost everything, (wow so heroic).. Yea, you know the ending right, I win, thanks to the car, but but the car is not a transformer, it just know where to go and what to do to defeat the enemies.. in the end, my girlfriend smile again. And along with the smile, i woke up and said
WTF......
I miss her..
11.8.09
2.8.09
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
Thought the wound is healed, though not completely
But at least it won't feel the pain again, I think
Actually the blood that beyond the wound is awaiting
Waiting for a chance to break through the wound and flood again
The funny thing is I am the one who break the dam to let it flow
I ask myself what do I want from you and myself? I don't know
Is it really that important? Is that you or me to cause all this pain
Maybe, but it doesn't matter now
Being here, it is just so empty and lonely
I am not good at expressing in words
But it is so vivid that I can see there is a circle of darkness around me
So tired of drowning all the thoughts by alcohol
You still cannot see it right now, is it?
Because your gaze won't land on my anymore
Or is me thinking too much
From the song that i have been addicted to
"If you were willing to peel away the layers surrounding my heart
You’d realize, you’d marvel that
You are my deepest, darkest secret
If you were willing to peal away the layers surrounding my heart
You would feel the sting of tears
I want you to hear me, see my sincerity....
I’m like an onion, forever in a supporting role
How I wish to have a moment for just the two of us"
But at least it won't feel the pain again, I think
Actually the blood that beyond the wound is awaiting
Waiting for a chance to break through the wound and flood again
The funny thing is I am the one who break the dam to let it flow
I ask myself what do I want from you and myself? I don't know
Is it really that important? Is that you or me to cause all this pain
Maybe, but it doesn't matter now
Being here, it is just so empty and lonely
I am not good at expressing in words
But it is so vivid that I can see there is a circle of darkness around me
So tired of drowning all the thoughts by alcohol
You still cannot see it right now, is it?
Because your gaze won't land on my anymore
Or is me thinking too much
From the song that i have been addicted to
"If you were willing to peel away the layers surrounding my heart
You’d realize, you’d marvel that
You are my deepest, darkest secret
If you were willing to peal away the layers surrounding my heart
You would feel the sting of tears
I want you to hear me, see my sincerity....
I’m like an onion, forever in a supporting role
How I wish to have a moment for just the two of us"
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